[ He presses his lips into a thin, bloodless line. focusing on his breathing. trying to pull away from everything and narrow his focus back down to a single point. the sound of his own heartbeat. the oxygen through his own blood. forcefully diverting his powers from chasing, the instinct to hurt that goes hand-in-hand with powers that heal.
he covers his face with his other hand, running shaky fingers through his hair.
if he's this far gone? he should get the fuck out of the city for a while. away from everyone. away from laurie, and from david, and from anybody else who might veer to close to try to help when he's at risk of completely losing himself and lashing out. ]
[ A weak smile quirks for a moment, mulling his options. ]
I've cooked dinner at my place, it should be ready to eat now. Billy is there, he's my housemate. I think [ gently, ] it would be good for you to break bread together ... over my fabulous cooking.
[ Loki makes his way into the sad kitchen, peeking out at the living room once more before he steps inside and opens a portal!! He darts in and turns off the stove, ladeling some of the kosher vegetable stew into a bowl and grabbing a spoon, some of the fancy bread he picked out for Billy, leaving a written note (CALMING DOWN JOSH HELP YOURSELF TO STEW BACK SOON!!! -L) all in around thirty seconds before stepping back through into Josh's apartment.
Portal closed, he heads back into the sad lounge where Josh is sitting. ]
This is an Asgardian recipe so you know it is good for you.
[ yeah, okay. he'll... eat in silence for a moment. giving his mouth something to do other than to run and his thoughts to recenter on something other than running or feeling shitty. ]
... I've never met your friend outside of here. But David said he threatened to unmake him once.
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he covers his face with his other hand, running shaky fingers through his hair.
if he's this far gone? he should get the fuck out of the city for a while. away from everyone. away from laurie, and from david, and from anybody else who might veer to close to try to help when he's at risk of completely losing himself and lashing out. ]
... I'm sorry. [ ... ] Just... Tell your friend I'm sorry.
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[ Softening his voice so it sounds entirely unlike his tone from before, his gaze tracks over him until he's sure he is being heard. ]
I am not sure why but you seem to be under incredible stress. As long as you don't touch me, I'm fine.
I'll shut up. Breathe, and talk to me.
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... I don't need to touch you to hurt you. I used to and then I didn't. I used to only be able to heal until one day I could... do this too.
[ he lifts his head. the black is splashed with gold. moving like a lava lamp, flickering with every word. ]
That's just how powerful mutations work.
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... You look a little like soup, too. No offence.
[ He stops acting scared and straightens up, offering Josh his hand. ]
No Nifleheim, back to Asgard. Back to gold. I trust you.
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[ okay, stop. stop. breathe. don't get angry. stop flipping the fuck out.
he shakes his head. ]
I'm not bragging and I'm not doing this on purpose.
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[ He waits, not advancing but neither retracting his hand. ]
We are both going to live forever so trust me when I say, I can wait.
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he doesn't answer. it takes several minutes for him to slowly unfurl himself, to reach out to loosely grasp loki's fingers with a golden hand. ]
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PHEW.]There you go.
[ He gives those fingers a gentle squeeze, eyeing him. ]
Hello, goldie.
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Are you hurt?
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[ That is 100% not true, he had no idea if that would work but yay for lies working and staying calm. ]
Are we all Asgardian again?
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[ he's pretty sure he's going to have to deal with this. ]
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[ Looking around, he eyeballs the couch. ]
Do you prefer something to pizza?
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[ mm. ]
... I usually eat better.
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[ A weak smile quirks for a moment, mulling his options. ]
I've cooked dinner at my place, it should be ready to eat now. Billy is there, he's my housemate. I think [ gently, ] it would be good for you to break bread together ... over my fabulous cooking.
[ Giving that hand another squeeze. ]
Please, Josh. Come home with me.
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[ he starts to pull back. ]
If he sets me off then I'm going to have an episode. I - I can't.
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[ Loki holds on. ]
Then you sit down and I'll ... be a really cool guy in your kitchen, making miracles. Can you sit?
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[ awkwardly. sitting himself down on the corner of the couch. ]
... Pizza's fine. I don't think there's enough in there to make any actual food.
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[ Loki makes his way into the sad kitchen, peeking out at the living room once more before he steps inside and opens a portal!! He darts in and turns off the stove, ladeling some of the kosher vegetable stew into a bowl and grabbing a spoon, some of the fancy bread he picked out for Billy, leaving a written note (CALMING DOWN JOSH HELP YOURSELF TO STEW BACK SOON!!! -L) all in around thirty seconds before stepping back through into Josh's apartment.
Portal closed, he heads back into the sad lounge where Josh is sitting. ]
This is an Asgardian recipe so you know it is good for you.
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Thanks.
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... Dig in.
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... I've never met your friend outside of here. But David said he threatened to unmake him once.
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[ He speaks levelly, giving Josh clear, calm facts. ]
He has a mouth on him, but he would not intentionally hurt someone. Not unless they threatened his person; his version of Laurie. Teddy.
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[ he sucks on the spoon for a moment. ]
And this... this isn't just about Laurie.
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