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[thecoolerloki]

No.
I died.

I would speak with you, if you'll allow it.

[ikols]

i know you died, it's all you ever talk about
i spent years crying and shaking over it before i finally figured out how to live with myself, so if this is going to be another conversation where my entire life has to revolve around you then no

i am done being a nicer, softer version of myself for your benefit

[thecoolerloki]

I hadn't lived it before. I told myself a story where I had no agency in the matter, made myself the victim. I kept trying to understand the motives of the characters, though, because with what you had told me, I couldn't make sense of it. In the story, you were the old man I imagined you to be. Yet I was faced with you as you are now, and the two were irreconcilable.

TBH with you, I agree. You should've been harder on me. Even Thor was harder on me than you were. But I suppose that's because of your ego death. You don't hate yourself the way I hate every inch of my being.

But you didn't kill me. You claim you were the dagger in the old man's hand, but you weren't even that. I died because I had to. My death simply is. There was no dagger. My plans would've caught up with me sooner or later. Honestly, I should've died many times before, but you saved me.

I'm sorry for what I said to you then. I was stupider than Thor, if that's even possible.

[ikols]

[ Ten minutes later: ]

that actually isn't possible

[thecoolerloki]

I think in this case it might be. When I begged him to kill me, to kill you, to kill Loki, he refused.

He's the biggest idiot in the Ten Realms, but he believes in us. Both of us.

[ikols]

i wish you hadn't lived it

[thecoolerloki]

So do I. But I would not be myself, I would not be Loki if I had not.

[ikols]

you are taking it with more wisdom than might be expected
you're not going to puppet a facsimile of my body again on a whim are you

[thecoolerloki]

Considering I was only alive for a year and a half, a few months of memories does quite a lot to my development.

But unless we have some sort of a lighthearted switcharoo to prank everyone, I don't plan on having any such whims.

[ikols]

how's strange treating you?

[thecoolerloki]

Fine. The fact I'm back to having the appearance of a child certainly doesn't hurt.

[ikols]

you will always be a child to people
you were



you were my boy

[thecoolerloki]

Gross, you sound like Odin :/

I'd like to think I influenced you as a parent might as well, though. "Ikol" didn't enjoy breakfast meats, or pop culture references, or social media.

[ikols]

ew

"ikol" was never much of anything important
and it turns out bacon really is magic

[thecoolerloki]

That's probably due to both of "Ikol's" authors writing him as a bit part. Still, it's impressive when a character can grow beyond that. You and Leah are very similar in that way. :)

[ikols]

whoa
comparing ME to leah?
who are you and what have you done with loki???
i'm assembling whatever avengers we have

[thecoolerloki]

:P
I wrote myself into both of your stories, for better or for worse.

TBH still dealing with the psychic damage of literally writing my first crush into existence and her also being my uncle's first crush and also kinda being my daughter but also also an extension of me like DO I THINK HELSTROM IS HOT TOO?

[ikols]

helstrom is not hot
whatever he has going on is a thing but it is not something you need to be amazed by

i gave hela away at the aisle
stories are just stories
pick the ones you like most and play them out

[thecoolerloki]

Helstrom's definitely hotter than Billy, noah fence.

[ikols]

billy is a married man of whose hotness i cannot speak one way or another





also i am TOTALLY marrying him when teddy is dead, SHH!!! 3>:)

[thecoolerloki]

Good luck with that.

BTW while we're on the subject and talking about hypotheticals and such
When we leave this realm
THEORETICALLY
If I were to live in the ancient past of Earth 616, would that create any plotholes?

[ikols]

he visited himself and it did nothing awful, caused no temporal knots

i see no reason that could not work

[thecoolerloki]

I thought Leah could use a friend, at least for some portion of the time she's stationed there.

I figure I'll die before the first Loki is born. And Hela will still be born from hatred and loss, but there will be a softness to her too.

If need be, I'd be willing to give up my memories, my sense of self, my godhood. I don't care if I'm Loki, so long as I can make sure she's not alone.

[ikols]

gross

[thecoolerloki]

IS NOT!!!!
It's not even for gross reasons like you so wrongly assume! I only wish to be her friend!